• Food Feelings

    The Weird Grief of A Pimento {and} Cheese Sandwich

    There’s a particular memory I have of my father—most likely a conglomeration of dozens of these tiny occurrences. I remember seeing him with his back to me, standing at the kitchen counter. There’s a tiny jar of red peppers, a much larger jar of Blue Plate mayonnaise, and some yellowy-orange cheese. I can hear the soft tinkling sounds of a butter knife against a bowl, the rustling of a bag of white bread. In a matter of moments there’s a sandwich on a plate—2 simple squares of white bread with a mushy pinkish orange something spread in between. I don’t know if I’m the only weirdo running around calling this…

  • a closeup photo of a burnt basque cheesecake with a slice removed
    Food Feelings

    The Why Even

    When I started my Instagram account of shitty phone pics of the food I was making, I was REAL depressed. I didn’t know it at the time. Or rather, deep down I knew but my brain was very good at staring at everything in the room except the giant depressed elephant WHAT ELEPHANT THERE’S NO ELEPHANT EVERYTHING IS FINE OHMYGOD PLZ SHUT UP. I did normal things every day. Woke up on time, did work, texted friends, made some food. Everything was just fine. Except that every day it felt more and more like I might shatter into a million pieces. And wouldn’t that be nice. To shatter into a…